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How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
11-04-2011, 09:11 PM
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How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Basically, story goes as this. I was about 16-17 and into regular ole dumpster porn. Hell, I remember seeing kids on TV and thinking about how they turned me off. I didn't know of hentai at this time and iirc thought being turned on by animations was "weird" But one day while watching G4 I saw a story about Wal Mart accidentally selling a japanese cat girl porn manga online. So I decided to investigate and quickly fell in love with all that was hentai.

I was on a normal hunt one day when I found a picture that I wasn't sure of at the time. It didn't register that the drawing was of a young girl, but it turned me on a lot and it had a tag that said Lolicon. I was intrigued. So I began a search for this new and arousing style of hentai and soon found out what it was.

Oddly enough, unlike most people, I had no moral issue or problem. I didn't freak out when I found out I was attracted to children. I embraced it. Ofc it took be about a year or so to join a lolicon community LOL But during those times, I would have internet for about 3 months and lose it for 8...
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11-04-2011, 09:49 PM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
As far as Hentai goes, for as long as I can remember I found myself attracted to animated characters. Growing up, just as I'd find myself having crushes on different girls in school, I'd likewise have crushes on different Cartoon and Anime characters.
Before I had access to the vast collection of porn the internet offers, I'd imagine sexual scenario's between myself and various animated characters.

In regards to Pedophilia, there were a number of instances growing up I'd cite as likely contributors toward inclining me to such an attraction, but the primary one occurred while I was still a Teenager. Afterward the attraction was unshakable, and shortly become one of my primary fetishes.

Given both these factors, it was par for the course I'd find myself so greatly attracted to Lolicon.
Though when first acquiring access to such images I was unaware of the actual term for it, and would generally search file sharing software for images of "Underage Hentai."

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11-04-2011, 09:50 PM (This post was last modified: 11-04-2011 09:50 PM by Armoro.)
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Well I've been looking at hentai since I was...11 12?
Anyway, I started looking at lolicon around the same time as I did hentai, I thought there was nothing wrong with it since it was fake, but I hid it, cuz I thought other people might think otherwise.
I remember seeing a few lolicon forums before, but never became a member cuz I was paranoid.
I finally did and saw people discussing lolicon and pedophilia openly and was amazed, a few months went by, then one day I had an extremely vivid dream of me having sexual intercourse with a very young girl, I have had these dreams before, but the where always either 3D or anime style, this dream was very realistic and felt real.
I stated freaking out after I woke up (Probably cuz I was sick and sleep deprived) But I was freaking out for a few hours, after some time went by and I started to calm down and think about it, I realized the more I thought about the dream and that girl, the more turned on I got.
I took me a little while, but after a lot of deep thinking, I realized that I was attracted to little girls.
It took me a few days to be comfortable with it though, and I know I liked them before then, I just didn't realize it, it was like denial, because I know it was wrong my brain was trying to protect me, but know I realize that having these feelings are NOT wrong.
Being a pedophile is not wrong. But going out, and hurting a child is unforgivable.
I know the Damage it can do to a child, and that is why I never will.

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11-05-2011, 01:07 AM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
YAY WE'RE SHARING AND BONDING.
kk my turn then.

so i kinda always had a hunch i was a pedo. no particular reason, really, it was just a nagging thought in the back of my mind every now and then. one day i was flipping through the TV for something slightly less shitty than the last thing to watch and i came across a little cartoon called ojamajo doremi. without rhyme or reason i just couldn't stop watching this shit. i'd go out of my way to watch little girls do mostly dumb shit while wearing the typical maho shoujo (or whatever the fuck it's called) outfits. well i started drawing the characters, posted them on deviantart, allot of people liked them and started watching my profile. eventually i posted a picture i found of two of the characters kissing and someone commented about lolicon. i decided to look it up, was freaked out, but eventually i started looking again. i'm looking for loli videos on limewire one day and i accidentally downloaded something a little more real. now THAT freaked me out, so i deleted it. eventually, again, i went back for the vid, watched it and came to the realization that it was awesome and i loved it. not long after i joined LRU because i wanted a place to get this whole pedo thing off my chest. i mean it's pretty fucking stressful feeling like you're mentally fucked and there's nobody around that can even tell you "don't worry about it" or something. i got over it eventually so nbd i guess.

and that's my story, kiddos.
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11-05-2011, 03:58 AM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Strangely I never gaf...I was also in my "I want to kill and torture human beings phase" ...might be the reason I dgaf if it was socially normal >_>
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11-05-2011, 04:41 AM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Sit down and get comfortable while I tell you a story about myself. Big Grin

While my childhood was relatively normal, I was twisted a bit by it due to my lack of being normal. Way back as a child, I had a photographic memory. I can remember back to when I was about 3 or 4 years old, unfortunately dates are not preserved in my memory and I don't remember things consecutively.

Well, back when I was young, to save time, she would bathe myself and my sister together. Me with my photographic memory, memorized what my sister looked like naked when she was about 6. The image has been forever burned into my brain.

Further expanding onto this, in kindergarten, I had a friend who used to expose himself to me. As to why he did, I do not know, but when he died in a car accident, I did some research on him. I found an account where he was looking for a "friend" who was age 10-16, and he was the same age as me, 20.

As I grew up, I was attracted to the girls around me, but I found once entering highschool, I just wasn't as attracted to them. So as I kept getting older without much attraction to girls my age, I put it all together at the age of 16 (my junior year of highschool).

In my senior year, during lunch, some friends brought up lolicon. Being as I just remember stuff without needing to really pay attention, I just passively remembered the word. One day I looked it up, and then it just became a part of my life. This then later also lead to shotacon.

And that's the short version of my story.

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11-05-2011, 01:35 PM (This post was last modified: 11-05-2011 01:38 PM by Iamyournemesis.)
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
I can't say there was any dramatic life changing moment where I discovered that I liked lolicon. I don't claim to be a pedophile because I'm NOT attracted to children in any way. I do like lolicon very much, but the thought of being sexually attracted to a child repulses me.

I won't pass judgement against anyone who is because it would be a truly weak and hypocritical judgement at best, but for me personally I have absolutely no attraction to children, in truth, I fucking hate kids...But that's what 4 years of teaching music to kids will do to you.

I had been into hentai since I first discovered it quite by accident when I was in 7th grade, I never really got to explore that whole universe for a while since I didn't have regular internet access until I was in high school. When I got into college and I was by myself for a change, I really delved deep into the world of hentai, originally my attraction to the chibi characters became the transition between regular hentai and lolicon. I gradually started to look at lolicon more and more, initially I was disgusted with myself for liking it and I tried to stay away. I was in a continuous state of denial and tried to convince myself that they weren't really kids, but that they were just "midgets". When that failed, I just reminded myself that they were just drawings, they weren't real and that I wasn't attracted to kids. That failed too and eventually I became more comfortable with my attraction to lolicon and finally embraced it about a year and half or two years back.

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11-05-2011, 02:37 PM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
For myself, I was first exposed to hentai when I was about 12-13, I was supposed to be looking up some images on the internet for a cousin's birthday party, and found some pictures of sailor moon that were definitely not appropriate for a happy birthday banner (in retrospect, that would have been awesome, however). At the time I did not have my own computer, but investigated when I could to find out about this.

I will agree with Doc S and mention that I was always 'attracted' to fictitious women as well as 'real' ones, and would often also find myself having strange fantasies involving characters from video games, cartoons, etc.

It was a couple of years later that I discovered lolicon, and I will admit that originally it turned me off, but I realized that it didn't BOTHER me, but it didn't really get me too excited either. After that, a few more years, and more events than I would like to recount, I often found myself socializing with others who were into lolicon. While I do not deny that I have ever had some alone time with some good ol' loli, I suppose I'm not really a lolipedo like some others are (like my dad, gods that man is an old perv)
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11-05-2011, 02:45 PM (This post was last modified: 11-05-2011 02:48 PM by Iamyournemesis.)
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
(11-05-2011 02:37 PM)Dessert Wrote:  For myself, I was first exposed to hentai when I was about 12-13, I was supposed to be looking up some images on the internet for a cousin's birthday party, and found some pictures of sailor moon that were definitely not appropriate for a happy birthday banner (in retrospect, that would have been awesome, however). At the time I did not have my own computer, but investigated when I could to find out about this.

I will agree with Doc S and mention that I was always 'attracted' to fictitious women as well as 'real' ones, and would often also find myself having strange fantasies involving characters from video games, cartoons, etc.

It was a couple of years later that I discovered lolicon, and I will admit that originally it turned me off, but I realized that it didn't BOTHER me, but it didn't really get me too excited either. After that, a few more years, and more events than I would like to recount, I often found myself socializing with others who were into lolicon. While I do not deny that I have ever had some alone time with some good ol' loli, I suppose I'm not really a lolipedo like some others are (like my dad, gods that man is an old perv)

Glad I'm not the only one who got into hentai because of Sailor Moon. I had always secretly prayed that the entire sailor girl squad would just up and go into a frenzied orgy of daisy chaining, scissoring and experimenting with various toys. 'Scuse me whilst I go and look some Sailor Moon hentai up now. I got me a nostalgic hankerin' for it all of a sudden.

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11-05-2011, 04:12 PM (This post was last modified: 11-05-2011 04:13 PM by Nate.)
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Well really its something that has always been there. I have always been attracted to younger girls and have always had fantasy about young girls. I was really never into hentai or anime at all. It wasn't until last year when my two friends showed me the anime kissxsis that shit got bad. Right before this I really started having some wierd thoughts about little girls and realized how bad I wanted to have sex with one. I had no idea that lolicon even existed and next thing i knew i was spending all the time i had looking at it. My one friend turned me onto lru and next thing I knew I was hooked. The more time I spent around it the more I realize just how sick and twisted my mind really is. It was all innocent and pure at first then came all my deep and twisted fantasies and thoughts. Really the loli was just a substitute for the real thing and honestly its a good thing I was introduced to it before something bad happened.

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11-05-2011, 05:14 PM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
(11-05-2011 04:41 AM)Anarchywolf46 Wrote:  In my senior year, during lunch, some friends brought up lolicon. Being as I just remember stuff without needing to really pay attention, I just passively remembered the word. One day I looked it up, and then it just became a part of my life.

this is pretty much how i found lolicon too, except instead of a friend at highschool it was someone i used to work with. they mentioned it in a conversation and i remember making a slight mental note of it at the time, but didn't remember to investigate it further until at least a few months later. that's when i found LRU about a month after it got started up and i've been on various loli forums since then.

as to when i realized i was a "pedo" well that's a tricky question. i don't really consider myself much of a pedophile, more of an ephebephile really because my attraction is primarily to teenagers. but i certainly don't have that thing in my head that most normal people supposedly have that makes them angry or disgusted by the idea of having sex with children of all ages. frankly i don't even really understand it. i guess in the context of modern societal over-coddling of our youth it makes sense, but given that sex with younger children has been acceptable or at least tolerated for the majority of human existence i don't really understand the sudden historical aversion to it.

that being said, it's hard for me to say when i "knew" because it always seemed like a natural thing to me, for children to engage in sexual behavior. i was a very sexual child and had a lot of sexual experiences with other boys and girls my age from the age of about 5 or 6 on up. i suppose i realize i was a pedo when i learned the word pedo, because before that i just thought it was normal.

i loved LRU back when discussions like these were still acceptable. it provided a great supportive community and "coming out" place for pedos, so to speak. i hope that this forum will be a new vehicle to that end ^.^

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11-05-2011, 10:00 PM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Sergi: Heck yeah KissXSis, my wife and I love that anime/manga.

Bride of Sin: A lot of what you said I feel really describes me, although I suppose I am not as eloquent as you are.
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11-05-2011, 11:59 PM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Well I have always been a pervert, from Kindergarten onwards, my life has been a quest for pussy. I had my first crush in kindergarten, my teacher she was about 180yo, and I quickly moved on to my second crush which was a fellow student, whom I never ended up asking out. That crush would last for years and may be a defining part of my psyche. By the time the crush faded she was dark skinned, short, almost flat chested, yet curvy with an ass that looked great in jeans, She was 15 yet still looked maybe 10. During that time I was interested in porn, porn, toys, and porn, and she was my number one fantasy every thing I thought a woman could be.

At 16 I became interested in other stuff porn, porn, toys, computers and porn. I got a summer job at a pool, hot 18 yo lifeguards filling their swim suits well and tons of little girls running around in various stages of development, and my job was to watch them. I think I was only interested in girls my own age and looking at them is swimsuits wasn't a bad way to spend the summer.

As I got older my interests changed I got into porn, porn, alcohol, computers and porn. by this time I had seen every type of porn I thought. I had no interest in pedophilia, didn't know what lolicon was but had a strong interest in Asian women, short, thin, long, hair, small breasts, subtle curves. I ended up becoming close friends with the guy who ran the porn stash at work, he had 3 lockers filled with porn from 18yo to grand mother porn and some twisted stuff as well. He had a daughter, an exotic mix of asian, black and a little indian she was 11 years younger than me I saw her first when I was 22 and she was a very similar to my first crush though with asian thrown in the mix as a bonus. She had that perfect little cat like body when she stretched and as we would get to his place late a lot she would come out in tiny little shifts. Hugs all around, a peak of ass as she jumped into daddy's arms, the press of tiny breast when it was my turn, the shy smile and blush at me on occasion... I never stood a chance. I did nothing but she entered into my fantasies a time or two.

Later on I met another super perv, and I started sharing my porn with him, then I became his supplier, I was downloading porn non stop to feed hid addiction. I would separate the good from the bad one time I had downloaded some CP by accident and even though deleted it off the computer instantly but I couldn't get it out of my mind. The next time I found some I kept it for a day, then a week, then a month. Then I started look for it and before regular porn, eventually that led me to lolicon.
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11-06-2011, 01:46 AM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Wow quite an interesting background story sounorcin. My only question is where the hell did ya work where you guys had a secret porn stash. Haha, that just seems kinda weird to me.

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11-06-2011, 03:05 AM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Well, soun is like, 60, so they didn't have computers, and everyone needs porn Awesome
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11-06-2011, 03:09 AM
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(11-06-2011 03:05 AM)Dave Wrote:  Well, soun is like, 60, so they didn't have computers, and everyone needs porn Awesome

Is he really like 60? Or you just fucking with me.

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11-06-2011, 03:11 AM
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He's like 42 >_>
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11-06-2011, 03:26 AM
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Well shit that ain't that old, but I guess I understand that then. No computers well personal computers and guys need their porn, so yeah it makes sense.

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11-06-2011, 04:45 AM
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Sorry Soun ._.

I forgot a lil bit of my story, right before I got into lolicon, i developed a thing for virgins and rape...
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11-06-2011, 04:18 PM (This post was last modified: 11-06-2011 04:20 PM by Sounorcin.)
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Yup I am 42, which is old as shit, little kids call me sir Sad.... anyway we had the porn stash when I worked at.... a hospital.

Well the story goes that, one of the orderlies used to be a mild perv and he would read a mag and store it in his locker so he would not need to bring them home to the wife and kids. When he retired my friend was told to clear out his locker and he found it half full with porn. Anyway my friend decided to keep the magazines and just found an empty locker and dumped them there. A few people found out and when when anyone had a Porno mag it would get added to the pile and we all could borrow them as well. The only obvious rule was no sticky pages. Eventually a few of the people realized that this was way better than keeping porn at home passed on their collections so it expanded.

The only weird thing I found was that some of the mags had pages that were sealed shut I found out that this was for your safety and that the contents on those pages was the type of stuff that could not be unseen.

Oh and I should mention that there ware a few hustler and Playboys in the stash, but those were mostly collector editions with real actresses and stuff. Most of stuff in the collection were those Mags that you just couldn't buy anywhere you had to go to specialty stores to get these mags. There were some from Sweden, some from Asia and some serious hardcore ones. My friend sorted and cataloged them all so I ended up seeing stuff that you just couldn't find easily online, everything from Bestiality, to Grandma porn, to asian rape.

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11-06-2011, 04:53 PM
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Hmmm well that is kinda cool I guess haha. I honestly didn't know they even had that kind of porn in mags, I learned something new today, haha.

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11-06-2011, 07:45 PM
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You prolly don't wanna know all the porn they have in asia...
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11-07-2011, 02:57 AM
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No I probably really dont.

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11-07-2011, 01:28 PM (This post was last modified: 11-07-2011 02:35 PM by Aaron.)
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Well, when I was about 12 or so, I looked around at porn and such, nothing special, but I was more interested in girls more my age... And I searched around, and found porn of girls my age (at that point, of course) and I liked it a lot more than porn that I could find all over the interwebs. And, a few months ago, I was on some forum, and saw the word "lolicon" and had no clue wtf it meant... I did a google search, and found LRU, which was just awesome. I've been hooked on lolis since, I guess... And I came to realize that I am a pedo at LRU... hmm...

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11-09-2011, 08:26 PM
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RE: How did you come to realize you were a lolicon/pedophile
Hey all! I am new here and found this thread so I thought I would share my own brief story.

I have always like porn, for as long as I can remember. I was just 8 years old and getting into my uncle's stacks of Hustler. In my tween-early teen years it was the early years of cable and I would stay up late trying to catch the softcore stuff on Cinemax. What I realized as I grew up is that while I kept finding older and older girls/women attractive (relative to my young age - at 17, 30 year olds seemed old) but I realized that unlike how most acted I still found many girls 10+ still very attractive, just like I did back when I was their age.

I didn't get my first computer until just 12 years ago. That first night I was wandering the web and found Hentai and that almost immediately led me to lolicon sites. And one of those link sites led me to a site that had non-nude preteen and early teen models. I was hooked on both instantly. Then one of the NN link sites led me to nude and what would be considered softcore pics I guess of girls (although in the eyes of the law it would all be considered CP). Seeing it freaked me out for a moment and I was afraid at the time to keep any on my system. But I stayed up all night multiple nights in a row those first few days looking at lolicon and tween models. I knew what I was at that point.

Now, I would never touch a child, the harm would be far too much and far too guilt inducing to endure, but I can look at lolicon pics and 3D computer renderings, drawings, and other similar things and indulge my fantasies.

Hope I didn't share too much and freak anyone out here. LOL
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